Fall like morning, Breathing, Bladder Cancer

Fall is here, Fall is here! Not ready, sooo not ready. 5:25am run, it's dark , long sleeves are needed, reflective arm band is on, and its 62 degrees out.  And It's just Tuesday.

Clearly I am alone on this run. Part of me wanted to make up for not getting up for my 5:25am run on Monday because of the rain.

Running this early, I feel safe and at peace because this is the "peaceful" time in the morning. Running along the ocean, seeing the sun rising, and the twilight of the city.

Breathing.......................

I wonder if my "auto guy (AG)" was breathing this morning. I went to see him yesterday because my car "wasn't sounding" right. I've know AG for over 5 years. He's such an advocate for women and talks about how the dealerships take advantage of women and some of the tricks they use. I'm so thankful he takes care of me as if I was his daughter.

He's the person I've gone to with "I hear a sound, will I die while driving?" and "Can it be fixed for under $1000 so I can still afford to eat?!" LOL

When I saw AG yesterday with this new noise and asked how he's been, he told me that he has bladder cancer. WHAT?! He has to go in for another surgery in a couple of weeks. I couldn't believe it. Even with the doctor going in through his "pee-pee" (AG's words) and getting 99.9% of the cancer. He was told that there was an 85% chance that it would come back. And it did.

Another part (side effect) of having bladder cancer is having back pain. Because of the industry he works in, he thought back pain was part of the job and he was getting older. He isn't a general fan of going to the doctor. Since he hardly goes, this might have been diagnose earlier.  Who knows?

At least he now he has medical marijuana card. Now, he can smoke legally, which helps with the pain.  He's been smoking the stuff longer than it has been legalized.  I told him, he should go to Colorado and just hang out for a long time. He laughed and said he should because he is a card carrying member.  I found out the medical marijuana is more expensive than what he use to get....capitalism.

Rightly so, AG, told me how his head is all messed up. The way the cancer is located in his bladder, it will keep coming back. Then he told me his daughter is getting married in 2017. Yes, this will mess your head up. I can't even imagine.

This morning I tried to breathe for him. I want him to be able to stick around and be at peace, even if its for 30 minutes.